Rudyard Kipling"
“When you're left wounded on Afganistan's plains and
the women come out to cut up what remains, Just roll to your rifle
and blow out your brains,
And go to your God like a soldier”
General Douglas MacArthur"
“We are not retreating. We are advancing in another direction.”
“It is fatal to enter any war without the will to win it.” “Old soldiers never die; they just fade away.
“The soldier, above all other people, prays for peace, for he must suffer and be the deepest wounds and scars of war.”
“May God have mercy upon my enemies, because I won't .” “The object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his.
“Nobody ever defended, there is only attack and attack and attack some more.
“It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived.
The Soldier stood and faced God
Which must always come to pass
He hoped his shoes were shining
Just as bright as his brass
"Step forward you Soldier,
How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek?
To My Church have you been true?"
"No, Lord, I guess I ain't
Because those of us who carry guns
Can't always be a saint."
I've had to work on Sundays
And at times my talk was tough,
And sometimes I've been violent,
Because the world is awfully rough.
But, I never took a penny
That wasn't mine to keep.
Though I worked a lot of overtime
When the bills got just too steep,
The Soldier squared his shoulders and said
And I never passed a cry for help
Though at times I shook with fear,
And sometimes, God forgive me,
I've wept unmanly tears.
I know I don't deserve a place
Among the people here.
They never wanted me around
Except to calm their fears.
If you've a place for me here,
Lord, It needn't be so grand,
I never expected or had too much,
But if you don't, I'll understand."
There was silence all around the throne
Where the saints had often trod
As the Soldier waited quietly,
For the judgment of his God.
"Step forward now, you Soldier,
You've borne your burden well.
Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets,
You've done your time in Hell."
A critical review and discussion of Exigent Circumstances: A Soldier’s Journey Down the Road Less Traveled by Major D Swami
Tuesday, November 11, 2025
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Strengths - What the book succeeds at
Raw honesty and unflinching tone
Reviews consistently call the memoir “brutal, honest, unforgettable”.
Major Swami does not sugar-coat or sentimentalise his story: he writes not just about combat or jungle warfare, but about the internal battles he fought.
Beyond a standard war-memoir
Unlike many military memoirs that focus on heroism, missions, and battlefield glory, this book engages with institutional culture, identity, race and loyalty. One reviewer states: “This isn’t just a war story … it is Malaysia’s story from the ground up.”
Exposure of prejudice and systemic bias
A major theme is how prejudice within the military (and society) restricted and undermined officers who were not part of the dominant ethnic group. The author recounts that he refused to “play the racial game” which might have advanced his career.
For instance one anecdote: in Somalia the platoon was told not to return fire because the attackers were “our brothers.”
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Relevance for broader social reflection
The book is not only interesting for military readers; it raises questions useful for any institution about merit, belonging, identity, and how a system treats those who serve it. One review calls it “a warning and a reminder — of how prejudice corrodes institutions”.
⚠️ Criticisms, limitations & things to watch
Tone may be heavy or discouraging
Because the book focuses on internal conflict, institutional betrayal and systemic injustice, it may not satisfy readers who want a more triumphant or uplifting war-story. One review notes:
“readers expecting a simple heroic tale may find it more sobering than uplifting.”
Regional/context-specific elements may limit accessibility
The story is deeply embedded in the Malaysian military and sociocultural context (ethnic Malay vs non-Malay dynamics). Readers unfamiliar with Malaysia’s military system, ethnic politics or history might need more background.
Lack of neat resolution
Because institutional problems don’t always have tidy endings, the book doesn’t resolve all its tensions. The “war within” continues. Some readers may find this less satisfying or feel the narrative is less about closure and more about awakening.
Focus skewed away from battlefield drama
If you pick up a military memoir expecting predominantly action, overseas deployments, battlefield heroics, you may find significantly more attention given to the internal culture, identity and prejudice issues than to combat sequences. The reviewer warns: “this isn’t light reading; some parts may be gritty, uncomfortable.”
🎯 On the theme of racism / blunt expression of prejudice
This is a key strength of the book, and one of its more courageous elements. The author directly confronts how being a non-Malay officer impacted his career and service.
He writes of how “our people” mentality crept into the forces: the anecdote in Somalia (above) is telling.
The memoir emphasizes that when identity (ethnic or otherwise) becomes a gatekeeper for trust, merit, career advancement or life-and-death decisions, the institution weakens.
The bluntness of the message is repeated in reviews: “he pulls no punches”
It’s worth highlighting that the book isn’t simply describing racial prejudice as interpersonal insults or overt slurs, but as structural — how policy, trust, career progression and life-mission become entangled with ethnicity, national identity and belonging. The kind of racism discussed is institutional and cultural, not just individual.
For example:
“A nation that cannot value all who serve, equally and without question, is a nation still at war with itself.”
That line crystallises the broader point: it’s not just one bad officer, it’s how the system is configured.
🧭 My verdict
If I had to sum up: this book is important, brave, and uneasy. It is not always comfortable, but it is necessary. It will appeal strongly to readers interested in military memoirs with a twist, institutional critique, identity politics, and non-Western military service stories.
However, it may not appeal as much to readers looking for a “classic war adventure” or those who prefer upbeat patriotic narratives. If you’re willing to handle the blunt discussions of race and bias, you’ll find much to engage with here.
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From Online retailers in Malaysia: Shopee: You can purchase the book from the Gerakbudaya/SIRD Malaysia official store on Shopee.
MPHOnline.com: The book is listed as available on the MPH
Online website. Kinokuniya Malaysia: You can find the book on Kinokuniya's Malaysian website, where it was in stock at their fulfillment center as of August 2025.
Gerakbudaya: The publisher's website also lists the book for sale.
Lazada: The Gerakbudaya/SIRD Malaysia official online store on Lazada also offers the book.
Physical bookstores: MPH Bookstores: Search results suggest availability at MPH stores, such as the TRX store, although it's best to check with a specific branch for current stock.
International buyers: Mary Martin Booksellers: This international bookseller lists the book, confirming it is a paperback written in English and self-published in Perak, Malaysia.
