“When you're left wounded on Afganistan's plains and
the women come out to cut up what remains, Just roll to your rifle
and blow out your brains,
And go to your God like a soldier”
General Douglas MacArthur"
“We are not retreating. We are advancing in another direction.”
“It is fatal to enter any war without the will to win it.” “Old soldiers never die; they just fade away.
“The soldier, above all other people, prays for peace, for he must suffer and be the deepest wounds and scars of war.”
“May God have mercy upon my enemies, because I won't .” “The object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his.
“Nobody ever defended, there is only attack and attack and attack some more.
“It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived.
The Soldier stood and faced God
Which must always come to pass
He hoped his shoes were shining
Just as bright as his brass
"Step forward you Soldier,
How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek?
To My Church have you been true?"
"No, Lord, I guess I ain't
Because those of us who carry guns
Can't always be a saint."
I've had to work on Sundays
And at times my talk was tough,
And sometimes I've been violent,
Because the world is awfully rough.
But, I never took a penny
That wasn't mine to keep.
Though I worked a lot of overtime
When the bills got just too steep,
The Soldier squared his shoulders and said
And I never passed a cry for help
Though at times I shook with fear,
And sometimes, God forgive me,
I've wept unmanly tears.
I know I don't deserve a place
Among the people here.
They never wanted me around
Except to calm their fears.
If you've a place for me here,
Lord, It needn't be so grand,
I never expected or had too much,
But if you don't, I'll understand."
There was silence all around the throne
Where the saints had often trod
As the Soldier waited quietly,
For the judgment of his God.
"Step forward now, you Soldier,
You've borne your burden well.
Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets,
You've done your time in Hell."
Recruit Training Center, First Impressions - Port Dickson
Monday, August 22, 2022
Already 5 months in training
The strutting gentleman we later found out was the Commanding Officer of the Recruit Training Center in Port Dickson named Major Aarof. That guy we realized later in training was a cross between Gomer Pyle and Gilligan.
All of us were rounded up like the sheep we were, onto trucks .It was twenty guys to a truck, of course we were warned, not to wave or yell to the public on the way to Port Dickson which was an hour away, to maintain proper military decorum and image. As though we were the guys who created the bad image, imagine all the curses and abuse at a public railway station in full hearing range of the public, especially on the matter that somebody’s mother’s private parts was diseased.
When we first arrived
These NCO’s who were going to be our instructors were the most sadistic bunch of people I ever had the privilege of meeting. They would put the drill sergeant in the movie Full Metal Jacket to shame. Not to soon we reached the great big square. This is where you get to see the great military bullshit of being yelled at repeatedly. You get sorted out, which platoon you going into, under which company; you are repeatedly shuffled from place to place under the blistering sun. The realization dawns on you then, what the fuck are doing in hell on earth?
Nearly reaching the end of the 6 months
After all the pathetic souls have been sorted out many times and some semblance of order has been retrieved, we are issued with plastic cups and plates to go for lunch. We are made to form in lines of threes and herded to lunch. In most armies the place soldiers eat is known as a mess hall, here it is known as a cook house.
The guys were all famished, after a long journey many of us did not have much money on us, we were the poor middle class, to get rid of the hunger pangs we were always filling our bellies with water. Now when we were finally at the cook house imagine we had to line up, in four lines that snaked around the building, 1500 of us, recruits!
It’s mind boggling, in the US Army it would not be a problem, they are used to aircraft carriers, starving populations and they feed their army in style. The Malaysian Army does not believe in good logistics, don’t pamper your soldiers or they will become spoilt. That mentality has not been eradicated until now, I am already a pensioner.
I managed to reach the food line, the rice is slopped down into your plate mind you not the white rice you normally get, it’s grayish, on again no time to choose, it’s beef, never eaten beef before you say no, a sarcastic remark is passed with a sneer, can consume milk but can’t take beef, in reference to the fact that I am an ethnic Indian.
There’s one Indian cook who sympathetically with an encouraging smile plunks down a big drumstick with a bit of gravy. The Malaysian Army has the largest number of racists and bigots until today in the 21st Century. Next they splash your plate with some vegetables ducked out from a huge container. After this it’s a major operation to find a sitting place.
It’s orderly but the instructors are yelling at the other guys who were in there earlier to gulp their food down. It was going to be our turn soon. The eating habits of a Malaysian other rank leaves much to be desired. It’s like maneuvering in a battle field to find a clear space to put your plate down.. At long last you are seated, now you notice your food, there’s one fat wiggly in the middle of the rice, the bastard cooks don’t even clean out the rice.
Before you realize you in the lowest ranks of the pecking order the instructors are yelling for us to clear the tables, desperately we start wolfing the food down. You are half way through, one burly instructor gives one powerful kick to my unfortunate neighbor who’s busy gobbling his food. The chair metal folding he is sitting on, is practically kicked out from under him.
The instructor is using hob nailed boots. The poor guy looks up dumb founded at the glowering face, don't you understand your time to eat is over it screams. As for me I quickly scramble away before I became a point of focus. Then it is falling back in threes and being marched back with an accompaniment of curses, foul language, threat of bodily harm and the never ending reference to the diseased private parts of somebody’s mother.
Hunger pangs still there, we are led to dilapidated old building which will be our barracks for the next six months. We stand in the heat with me wondering whether I made the right career choice. We are split into two groups, one group is led away to a shed under a huge canopied tree.