Rudyard Kipling"
āWhen you're left wounded on Afganistan's plains and
the women come out to cut up what remains, Just roll to your rifle
and blow out your brains,
And go to your God like a soldierā
General Douglas MacArthur"
āWe are not retreating. We are advancing in another direction.ā
āIt is fatal to enter any war without the will to win it.ā āOld soldiers never die; they just fade away.
āThe soldier, above all other people, prays for peace, for he must suffer and be the deepest wounds and scars of war.ā
āMay God have mercy upon my enemies, because I won't .ā āThe object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his.
āNobody ever defended, there is only attack and attack and attack some more.
āIt is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God that such men lived.
The Soldier stood and faced God
Which must always come to pass
He hoped his shoes were shining
Just as bright as his brass
"Step forward you Soldier,
How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek?
To My Church have you been true?"
"No, Lord, I guess I ain't
Because those of us who carry guns
Can't always be a saint."
I've had to work on Sundays
And at times my talk was tough,
And sometimes I've been violent,
Because the world is awfully rough.
But, I never took a penny
That wasn't mine to keep.
Though I worked a lot of overtime
When the bills got just too steep,
The Soldier squared his shoulders and said
And I never passed a cry for help
Though at times I shook with fear,
And sometimes, God forgive me,
I've wept unmanly tears.
I know I don't deserve a place
Among the people here.
They never wanted me around
Except to calm their fears.
If you've a place for me here,
Lord, It needn't be so grand,
I never expected or had too much,
But if you don't, I'll understand."
There was silence all around the throne
Where the saints had often trod
As the Soldier waited quietly,
For the judgment of his God.
"Step forward now, you Soldier,
You've borne your burden well.
Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets,
You've done your time in Hell."
When merit stalls in the Malaysian armed forces By Frankie D'Cruz
Wednesday, January 14, 2026
After 33 years of service, Lt Col Don Too is placing his career record before the public. (Ahmad Sollehin pic)
FMT : A retired lieutenant colonel puts his career on record to question how merit is recognised in the military.
KUALA LUMPUR: For years, retired officers have raised the same quiet complaint: careers that plateaued without an obvious cause.
Few sign their names to those stories. Fewer still bring documents, dates and evaluations into the open.Retired Lieutenant Colonel Don Too Heng Onn, 77, has done all three.
After 33 years in the Malaysian army ā
regimental command, staff-college roles, a United Nations (UN) posting
and repeated high performance grades ā Too now asks a simple question: If the services truly reward merit, why did he spend a decade at one rank?
A
young Don Too (left) and (right) with company commander Major Jayabalan
during a field exercise near Mount Kinabalu National Park, Sabah, 1991.
(Don Too pic)
āThis is not about bitterness,ā he said. āI remain proud of the institution that shaped me.ā āBut silence also implies acceptance that
I was not good enough for promotion to the next rank and I donāt
believe my record supports that.ā Tooās decision to speak comes at a moment of heightened scrutiny for the Armed Forces.
Investigations into procurement, the
arrest of army chief Hafizuddeain Jantan and allegations of misconduct
at some facilities have turned public attention to how the defence
establishment governs itself.
Those developments do not relate to Tooās
career. Still, they sharpen the publicās interest in whether promotions
and appointments happen transparently, and whether merit matters.
From cadet to command
Too joined the Royal Military College in
1968. He became one of six junior under officers in his second year, āan
early sign of leadershipā, he says.
Lt
Col Don Too inspects the quarter-guard on arrival to assume command of
the 5th Royal Ranger Regiment, Bau Camp, Sarawak, 1990. (Don Too pic)
He played hockey, rugby, won all his
boxing bouts, trained as a lifeguard and once helped rescue trainees
during a failed river-crossing exercise. āThere was no commendation,ā he recalled.
āThe institution preferred to forget the incident. But acts of service
shape you whether theyāre acknowledged or not.ā
Commissioned in 1970, Too had been
selected for the Royal Engineers. The events of May 1969 altered that
path; non-Malay officers were reassigned to infantry roles as the army
expanded. āMy career trajectory changed overnight,ā he said. āLike most officers, I accepted the posting and soldiered on.ā
Over two decades he served with five Ranger battalions, including two tours with the 5th Rangers, which he later commanded. He held staff roles at brigade, division
and corps headquarters, taught at the Command and Staff College and
worked at the defence ministry.
āI never had disciplinary issues,ā he
said. āMy strength was analysis and writing.ā A staff-college thesis he
wrote, The Principles of War in the Malaysian Environment, appeared in
the army journal Sorotan Darat. The director of military intelligence phoned to congratulate him. āThat told me my thinking had value,ā he said.
The decade that didnāt move
Too rose to lieutenant colonel in 1990 and stayed there until mandatory retirement in 2001.
Don
Too (centre) with UN military observers in Angola, 1995, where he
served as a regional senior military observer after leading a Malaysian
contingent. (Don Too pic)
āFor an infantry officer, thatās
unusual,ā he said. āIf there are performance problems, you donāt
advance. My reports were consistently strong.ā As commanding officer of the 5th Rangers, Too earned high marks from three brigade commanders.
On leaving regimental command he received
the defence ministryās excellent service award, an accolade he was told
went to roughly the top two percent. He later returned as directing staff at
the Command and Staff College and graduated from the Malaysian Defence
College where his commandantās thesis ranked among the top five.
Being among the top graduates, he was invited by the College Board to pursue a masterās degree in strategic studies. But before he could take up the offer, he was directed to lead a team of military and police officers under the UN in Angola.
After six months he was posted as the
regional senior military observer. The provincial UN commander asked
that he extend his tour by three months to coincide with his own end of
tour; Malaysian representatives in New York declined. During his departure courtesy call, the UN force commander described his report as unusually high.
Back home, Too produced classified
strategic studies at Army Training and Doctrine Command. āThey assigned
me tasks normally done by tri-service teams,ā he said. āEach time, it ended with a polite āwell doneā.ā Still, promotion boards passed.
On not lobbying for rank
Colleagues urged Too to press his case
with senior generals. āThey told me, āWith your record, they canāt
refuse you,āā he recalled. āI couldnāt bring myself to do it. I believed professionalism should speak for itself.ā
He never suggested anyone rose through improper means. āIām not saying anyone grovelled,ā he said. āBut if promotions depended on who knows
you, I was doomed from the start. I never tried to project myself or
draw special attention.ā
He watched peers and juniors advance, including some who attended Defence College years after he had. āI swallowed my pride,ā he said. āBut deep down, I knew the system hadnāt served me fairly.ā
āHad I been Bumiputera, would I have
reached colonel at least?ā he asked. āIāll leave that to readers. The
fact the question arises already tells you something.ā
What this reveals
Tooās case does not prove bias or corruption. It does, however, show how opaque personnel systems are experienced from within. When institutional processes lack clarity, speculation fills the gaps, and trust erodes.
āStories like mine circulate quietly
among families,ā he said. āFrom fathers to sons. Thatās why many
non-Bumiputeras no longer see the service as a place where merit will be
recognised.ā Transparency would not settle every career question. But it would make promotion outcomes defensible.
Too suggests modest reforms: clearer
criteria for boards, publication of aggregate promotion statistics and a
mechanism for review or appeal. āIf the armed forces want to be
world-class, promotions must be based on merit,ā he said. āNot
familiarity, not kinship, not unwritten rules.ā
He does not demand belated recognition. āIāve lived my life,ā he said. āI remain grateful to the army.ā āBut if an officer rated excellent,
recommended for advanced strategic studies, praised by UN leadership and
trusted with drafting strategic papers and still be passed over
repeatedly, then we must ask what the system rewards.ā
As veteran testimony goes on record,
institutions face a simple choice: explain how they decide, or leave
quiet stories to shape public judgment.